It’s the second day of using Threads on my phone, and while I want to love it… I’m not… yet. I should let you know that I attempted to use Twitter (some years ago) and also, did not love that either. Today I’m taking note of why it is not love at first Thread. And, I’m willing to bet that it’s my nervous system.
This morning while waking slowly to my first day without steroids in a week, my dogs decided to have a war over critter food. Bleary-eyed and contact-less, I rushed down the stairs (did I take two at a time? This, I cannot tell you.) to the crime scene. Our Tiny dog, freshly home from adventures in the ER last week, had wounds at her neck. Her very tiny self shook uncontrollably. And, I reminded my family of how very normal this can be… dogs fighting, chaos in homes that have 9+ animals on any given day. We have quite the mini farm, here.
I’ll take this moment now to share how very much I do not like chaos.
I am neurodivergent with a significant trauma history. Included in that history is a decade as a high needs parent and 25+ years chronically ill. I imagine myself and chaos to be like siblings sitting at the table, frowning at each other over chocolate milk. Like two sisters who have spent too much summertime together, I am annoyed by it’s mere presence.
Yet, I don’t often have a choice whether or not chaos will stick around… visit or stay.
I do however get to decide whether or not to invite chaos in.
“In” as in giving chaos an invitation to dance upon my soul, squash it’s joy, keep her tangled up in wildness without breath or pause.
All of this to say…
What if Threads isn’t good for some of us?
What if it’s just another space for those with an overwhelmed nervous system to feel our sanity slip between the cracks?
I haven’t decided whether or not I will stay on Threads yet, loves. I have built a massive community and the most beautiful friendships through social media over the years - and for this, I am undoubtedly the-most-thankful. I don’t need anything else in my life to run my nervous system ragged, though. I don’t need anything to keep me from being my most present and calm self.
And in motherhood and life, there often seems to be things that want to keep me from being my most present and calm self.
What are your thoughts?
How does your body, mind and soul align with extra input?
Does Threads seem like a space that might bring you more joy?
I’d love to hear.
Summer Lovin’
As a heads up, because my body, mind and soul are all in higher demand (my body doesn’t like desert summer & desert summer doesn’t give my child the excitement she needs, either) you’ll see fewer emails from me these next few weeks. I’m also working on a really exciting project for the postpartum world that I’ll launch in August. When I have free time, it’s being spent there.
Between now and when we meet next, consider how you feel in your body, mind and life. What do you need more of today, this week, this summer? Where will you find it? Can you call it in?
I’m with you, darling soul.
Squeezes,
J. 🌻
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I agree wholeheartedly. It’s another place to either measure up or not. It’s pure chaos of everybody’s stream of consciousness with no filter. I’m trying it out also, but I’m not convinced yet that it’s worth it.